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Keeping it Real On the Path to Wherever I am Going

The sense of loss and the emptiness of having traveled so far just to get to this place can be overwhelming.

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I have been writing now for about twelve years on this blog. I started it because I am a professional writer (of sorts), and I wanted to use the talents God gave me for something bigger than me.

I became a Christian in college, and that conversion diverted me from any career path I might have wandered down. I should emphasize the wandering, because I wasn’t very career-minded to begin with. I was a truth seeker, and I still am.

I thought I would go into “ministry”. That’s all I really wanted to do, but I wasn’t on a track for ministry. It was a very secular college with very traditionally secular guidance to provide. I was a crazy Christian convert who was reading the Bible and believing it.

I became a student leader of the campus InterVarsity group. We had virtually no oversight. That group of fledgling college students, like myself, was my discipleship group

I was certain about one thing: that God existed, and He had changed me. I didn’t know much of anything else.

I gravitated toward a local independent, Charismatic church about 40 minutes away. I would go to church there many Sundays, but I was a college student preoccupied with the things college students did. I mentored with the head pastor for a short time, but not long enough to make much of a difference.

I didn’t trust my college advisors because they didn’t believe the Bible like I did. I should have gone to seminary, but I didn’t because the apostles who stood up on the day of Pentecost and preached powerfully and eloquently in various tongues to the crowds in Jerusalem were unlearned men. I wanted to be like them.

These words Paul spoke to the Corinthians heavily influenced me: The Gospel is foolishness to those who are perishing (1 Corinthians 1:18); and God makes foolishness the wisdom of the age. (1 Cor. 1:20-21) I thought I didn’t need a seminary. In truth, I was afraid that a seminary would try to conform me by the wisdom of the age.

I should have paid more attention to what Paul said to the Corinthians: Greeks look for (worldly wisdom), but the Jews demand signs. (I Cor. 1:22) I wanted signs. It turns out that Paul was right. Worldly wisdom and demanding signs are both misguided paths.

I went off to the East Coast chasing after a church, the legend of which I heard from the man who become my best friend in college. Maybe the best friend I have ever had. A true brother in the Lord, Jesus.

We encouraged each other in that season of our lives. We both had become Christians after leading wild, existentially-angst-filled lives in our youth. We came to the kingdom of God with baggage (who doesn’t?), but we knew that Jesus had the words of life, and we were all in.

I packed my bags for a summer counseling job in a Christian camp on the south side of Like Winnipesaukee like Abraham leaving behind his homeland for the promised land. I didn’t believe I was ever coming back. Only God knew my intentions at the time.

After camp ended and I helped to close it up for the next camping season, I moved a half hour north into the last communal house left over from the Jesus People movement that swept this tourist area in the late 60’s and early 70’s. That movement of the Holy Spirit caught a bunch of migrant hippies in its current and deposited them downstream from wherever they thought they were wandering into Christian communal living.

Those communes were a legend I only heard snippets about when I arrived, but the communal spirit was still in the air. I loved it. I embraced that communal spirit for the next 40 months, and I plugged into the life of that church.

I grew up as person and as a young Christian during that time in many ways. The church was edgy. It was brash. It tried to be authentic. It dared to think big, and I ate it up. But, it wouldn’t last. (It disintegrated and splintered into many fragments not long after we left it.)

I still wanted to be in ministry, though I had no vision. I thought it would just happen. I had heard that a man’s gift makes room for itself. (I think that is in a Proverb somewhere.) But it wasn’t happening for me. I was also young and impatient and impetuous.

I had always longed for love and intimacy. I was a romantic dreamer. I was heavily influenced by Disney stories of life lived happily ever after, but I knew nothing of the promise those stories offered. I still don’t.

I married on a whim, encouraged by “a word spoken over me” that I didn’t understand, but I acted anyway. That determination to act was pivotal.

Just over 40 years have past. I have been married, now, for 39 years. It would be 40 years in November, but my wife left me almost two years ago, and I don’t think we are going to make it to 40.

I am not sure exactly where I am going here today, other than the need I feel to keep things real. I don’t usually focus so much on myself, but I have gotten used to writing to work out the thoughts in my head, and today those thoughts involve trying to make some sense of my life.

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The Top Ten Articles on this Blog in 2024

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I have written and posted fewer articles this year than any year since the first full year of this blog (2013). In fact, I posted only one more article in 2023 than I did in 2013. I have focused more on my work, operating a legal clinic, involvement in the nonprofit, Administer Justice, locally and nationally, and I have been distracted by personal circumstances in my life that have made 2023 difficult for me.

Though I have published only 52 articles this year (not counting this one), more than 29,500 people viewed articles on the blog this year. In 2022, I posted 73 articles to 30,614 viewers, and I posted 107 articles for 30,751 viewers in 2021. Thus, people have continued to visit Navigating By Faith in similar numbers though I published less than half the number of articles in 2023 as I did in 2021.

Though I had one third fewer views in 2020 (20,084), a foursome of article I wrote in 2020 led the way in most viewed articles this year. 2020, of course, was the dreadful year of COVID. COVID gave us all the time and cause to reflect.

The most viewed articles on NBF in 2023 reflect what was going through my head in 2020. The two most read articles in 2023 came out of my daily Bible reading in 2023. One article, which has become the most read article ever on NBF, was inspired by politics, conspiracy theories, Donald Trump, and the Evangelical preoccupation with end times eschatology. The other, which is the most read article in 2023, was simply inspired by Scripture.  

Perhaps, the popularity of The Redemption of Korah: the Sons of Korah (with 3645 views) is a positive reflection on where we are now compared to 2020.  It is a story of the great theme of redemption that permeates the Bible from beginning to end. It is a story of hope and of God’s loving kindness and our appropriate response in gratitude for the faithfulness of God and His mercy, which new every morning.

The article, Who Were the Sons of Issachar? And What Might They Mean for Us Today?, dominated the blog when I wrote it in 2020. It quickly became the most read article, outpacing every other article written since I started NBF in 2012. It continued as the top article in 2021 and 2022, but it comes in second (which 3014 views) in 2023.

I wrote this article in my angst and internal conflict over the enthusiastic support Evangelicals were giving Donald Trump (including good friends of mine) in the months leading up to the last presidential election. My friends were sending me “inside” information, podcasts, and “prophetic words” celebrating the inevitability of a Trump reelection.

I grew up spiritually in Charismatic circles. Though I saw some things there that trouble me, like a sometimes hyper focus on spiritual gifts and what I would now label errant theologies (like the prosperity Gospel), I am keenly aware of Paul’s admonition not to despise prophecy.

When my best friend from 40 years ago cautioned me lovingly to “understand the times” like the sons of Issachar, I was even more troubled. I dug into the passage in 1 Chronicles where men from every tribe of Israel risked their livres to join David in the wilderness as he hid from paranoid King Saul, including “the sons of Issachar who understood the times and knew what Israel should do”.

Did I misperceive what God is doing in the world today through Donald Trump? Was I on the verge of being left behind in my reticence to be uncritical of him? Had I grown insensitive to the Holy Spirit? Was I living in apostasy? Was I fooling myself to be so critical of the “Christian” support for Trump?

When my very good friend seemed to suggest that I was missing the boat, I took it to heart. “Understanding the times” has been become a Christian buzzword for being in tune with the Holy Spirit in the assessment of culture, politics, and what is happening in society. Writing is my way of working through what I believe God is saying to me, and this article, more even than most, is “prophetic” in that way. I can only pray and remain open and humble with hope that God is working in and through me in my writing.

The next two most read articles in 2023 also grew out of the solitude and reflection that characterized 2020. They relate to the last article to the extent that Evangelical flirtation with the power and influence promised by Donald Trump threatened (and did, I believe) damage the credibility of Evangelicals in the world.

What is an Evangelical if not a proclaimer of the Gospel? My criticism of enthusiastic Evangelical support for Donald Trump was carried by my concern for our witness for Christ to a wayward world he came to save. Our uncritical support of the brash, uncaring, pompous, and insensitive blusterer in Chief focused my mind and heart on how we should present ourselves to the world and seek lost sheep as Jesus did.

God Meets Us Where We Are (with 2126 views) comes out of reflection on my own past where God found me on a journey for truth and meaning. I was not so jaded by the world (and Christians in the world) that God was unable to use them to propel me along the path to Him. For this reason, I believe we must ever be sensitive enough to “where people are” and meet them “there.

In this vein, Paul became a Jew to the Jews, and he became a Greek to the Greeks. He quoted pagan poets and philosophers to pagans. If we divorce ourselves from the world in which we live, we lose our connection to people and our ability to connect with them. Just as God “met me” where I was in my early 20’s, He is “there” meeting people where they are today, and He invites us to join Him.

Fourth on the list (with 952 views) is Apologetics: What It Means for Our Speech to Be Seasoned with Salt. I don’t think I need to explain the obvious connection to how we conduct ourselves in the world – not the least of which is our speech! How we say things is as important as what we say. “Let your speech always be gracious.” (Eph. 4:6)

Fifth on the list of most read articles (with 557 views) is a throwback to a favorite subject: CS Lewis on the “True Myth”. I am a longtime Lewis fan, and I have long contemplated his conception of the “true myth” (which really comes from Tolkien). For Lewis, who was steeped in ancient myths, the redemption story in the Bible is the true “myth” as to which all other mythic stories in the world are only shadowy echoes.

Tuning In To God’s Frequency (497 views) and The Message in the Earliest Creeds in the New Testament (463 views) are the oldest articles in the top ten most read articles for 2023. Both were written in 2016. Tuning into God’s Frequency is an exercise in fleshing out how nature (in the form of a tuning fork) resonates a lesson in how we relate to God: we must “tune” ourselves to God’s frequency God to know Him. (It doesn’t work the other way around.)

The Message in the Earliest Creeds lays to rest a trope that was popular once in the academic world: that the message of the resurrection of Jesus arose as legend in the second or even third centuries. The academics who developed this thesis, claimed that early followers of Jesus didn’t claim that he rose from the dead; the resurrection idea developed generations later. Sadly (for them), modern scholars can point to many creeds throughout the New Testament that date back to the generation followers of Jesus who knew him, and they all focus on one thing: resurrection.

The article, Is Saul Among the Prophets? On Prophecy and a Heart for God (333 views), continues the theme of modern prophecy in light of the Old Testament. Saul was not known for his piety, or his ability to prophecy. Thus, the rhetorical saying developed in ancient Israel, “Is Saul among the prophets?” No, Saul was not a prophet, but he did prophecy (twice), and the instruction I see in that is what I develop in this article.

The ninth most read article in 2023 (312 views) is the only one written in 2023: Joe Rogan Interviews Stephen Meyer on Intelligent Design. Joe Rogan, who seems to be flirting reticently with Christianity, interviewed Stephen C. Meyer, who wrote the best book I read this year, Return of the God Hypothesis”, in one of the most intriguing and poignant discussions I encountered all year.

Is God a Hard Taskmaster? (with 301 views) rounds out the ten most read articles on Navigating By Faith in 2023. It deals with God’s character and our relationship to Him in the gifts each one of us has been given by God. How we use those gifts (and whether we use them at all) is a measure of our relationship to God.

I am amazed that so many people are reading Navigating By Faith, even though my article output has waned. I enter 2024 with some uncertainty and the loss of motivation that accompanies interruption and uncertainty. I hope to return to some stability in the coming year and to find my balance again.

I have found it increasingly difficult to write as I have in the past. I look forward to finding new motivation and inspiration to allow me to pull on threads that I continue to see in my daily Scripture reading and meditation as I try to live intentionally in this modern world.

I am thankful for the people who read, comment on, and share articles that I have written. I would like to think that I would write them whether anyone reads them or not. I began writing out of obedience to God (and to respect the abilities God has given me), but I realize I do not write in a vacuum. I am ever thinking about who might be reading what I write, and I endeavor to be true to what God has laid on my heart as I seek and explore the truth of God’s world the best that I can.

If anything I write resonates with you, please like what you read, share it, and leave your comments. If what I write doesn’t resonate or seems off to you, please feel free to comment also. I am certain that I don’t always get it right, and I don’t always communicate as well as I would like. Your comment challenge me to rethink sometimes and do communicate better.

Finally, I pray that God’s light will shine ever brighter in this dark world in 2024 and that I can be a vessel of that light. God equates Himself with one thing, and only one thing in Scripture, and that is love. Faith and hope are great, but the greatest of all is love. May we all learn to love God and to love our neighbors more in 2024!

The Top Ten Articles on Navigating By Faith in 2021

The top three articles were all written in 2020 as the world hunkered down against COVID.

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When I set out to begin writing in 2012, I did it because I believed the Holy Spirit was prompting me to use the gifts God gave me and to be diligent in using them. This was the blog I set up in response to that prompting. I didn’t focus on the number of people who followed or read the blog. I was simply being obedient.

Each year since then, though, I have taken stock of the number of readers and the articles that are being read on this site: Navigating By Faith. The numbers have not always increased each year over the previous year, but they have trended up since 2012.

In the 2nd year, I topped 1000. By 2018, I topped 10,000. The blog wasn’t viral, but it was being read. In 2019, I was plateaued at just over 10,000 article views, with slightly fewer views in 2019 than the year before.

The last two years have seen jumps in readership by approximately 10,000 each year: a total of 20,084 in 2020 and 30,749 in 2021. I attribute the big jump last year to COVID. Everyone was hunkering down; they had more time; and they were reading more. I am not sure why the additional jump this year.

Maybe we have been more reflective as a society as we have come face to face with a deadly pandemic and have had more time to reflect? Maybe I hit on some topics that are particularly poignant in the current flux of issues bombarding the Church in the United States.

I began writing two blogs in 2012: one aimed at the general seeker; and this one aimed more specifically at Christ seekers/followers. Over time, I fund myself most focusing on the latter audience. I don’t think I have posted more than one article on the first blog in over a year.

In 2021, three articles account for the 10,000 increase over last year, and each one seems fitting for “the times” we have been experiencing.

The first one,

Who Were the Sons of Issachar? And What Might They Mean for Us Today?,

(written in September 2020) seems to have struck a nerve.

The article It has 6606 views which is over 4000 more than the next most read article. It was the product of my own angst about the evangelical support for Donald Trump, questioning my own increasingly critical posture, and digging deep into Scripture for answers. Could I have been wrong about him? Why are so many Christians defending him?

Because it went “viral” (relatively speaking) on my blog, I wrote a summary of just that one article. It was written before the presidential election and the January 6th confirmation, but it continues to be the most read article on the blog on a daily, weekly, and monthly basis. You can read my retrospective of the article for the back story and my current assessment of the article.

The second most read article in 2021, with 1669 views, is:

God Meets Us Where We Are.

It is a kind of response to the existential angst of the Christ seeker/follower. It runs along the vein of Psalm 139. We can’t go anywhere that God is not with us. We don’t have to climb up to Him because He “climbs down” to us and meets us right where we are.

The third most read article tackles Critical Race Theory from a Christian Perspective (1226 views).

It summarizes the position of Monique Duson, who gravitated from CRT follower to CRT critic. She now sees CRT as a religion-like worldview that is heretical to and competes with Christian faith. That this article garnered much more attention than other articles I wrote about CRT is ironic.

I am not reflexively against CRT. I believe it has been coopted by people with anti-religious, even Marxist views of the world, but CRT isn’t (in itself) threatening to faith. What troubles me more than CRT is the effort the Church puts into beating up the CRT boogeyman while ignoring the underlying issues of racial injustice and racial disparity that continue to exist.

The top three articles were all written in 2020 as the world hunkered down against COVID. As the world hunkered down, racial tensions and angst rose up. Thus, I think, the reason why these articles got the most attention is easy to understand.

Those three articles, alone, account for over 10,000 views. They exceed al the views of the other articles that fill out the top ten combined. I will address each one and make some comments as I go.

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