Bitter Pill

Some stories need to be repeated. This story comes from a 40 year missionary in Brazil. It involves a people known as the Katukina, who survive with their own distinct language and separate culture in the Brazilian jungle. Jerry and Gloria Kennell are off the mission field now, due to health issues that have slowed them down a bit, though they continue the work of revising and editing the translation of the Bible into the Katakunan language. (See Kennell blog) According to native-languages.org, only about 200 people speak the Katukinan language. They are a remote tribal group in a remote area of the world.

Jerry recently described an incident during his time with the Katukina in which a man fell ill with malaria, a jungle killer. Quinine is only cure for malari. One of the ways the missionaries serve the tribal people is by bringing in medical supplies, including quinine.

There are two main forms of malaria. One results in horrific physical symptoms such that a person suffering from this form of malaria might wish to die, though it is usually not fatal. The other form does not carry with it the awful physical symptoms, but it results in death if not treated early. The man who contracted malaria suffered from the second, lethal form of malaria. With quinine, however, people usually recover. The man was given quinine pills and aspirin to give him relief from the symptoms. It was thought he would be fine, but a number of days later, in spite of receiving the sure antidote, the man was found dead in his house/hut.

They later discovered the reason. Under the man’s hut, tossed through the cracks in the floor, were the quinine pills. The man had taken the aspirin, but he threw the quinine pills away. Quinine is very bitter. It causes ringing in the ears and is not pleasant to take. The aspirin, on the other hand, was not as bitter and gave him immediate, noticeable relief. The man took the medicine that relieved the symptoms, but he rejected the medicine that would save his life.

We are like that man in the hut. We seek relief from the sufferings of life with things that only relieve or mask the symptoms. We seek self-help, positive thinking, drugs, alcohol and other modern placebos, but we reject the one thing that will save us from our human condition. Many things are pleasant and give us sometime relief, but the one thing that will cure us from what sin and death has wrought we reject.

He who loses his life will find it. He who is last will be first. Narrow is the road that leads to salvation. It can be a bitter pill to face one’s sinfulness, to concede control of one’s destiny, to humble one’s self in the sight of God, to be vulnerable at the core of one’s being. Salvation is not something that comes from anything we can do; it only comes by what God has done for us. Christ is our example. He came humbly and lived among us as a man; he was obedient, even to submit to death. (Phil. 2:8) The way to life is to accept what he has done for us and to submit to it.

Salvation can be a bitter pill, indeed. It means the end of my pride; it means no more of me. Many people, me included, would just about do or concede anything but the very core of ourselves. the bitter pill, however, is the gateway to real salvation, life, joy. No one has described the dilemma of the soul surrendering to his maker better for me than C. S. Lewis:

“You must picture me alone in that room in Magdalen, night after night, feeling, whenever my mind lifted even for a second from my work, the steady, unrelenting approach of Him whom I so earnestly desired not to meet. That which I greatly feared had at last come upon me. In the Trinity Term of 1929 I gave in, and admitted that God was God, and knelt and prayed: perhaps, that night, the most dejected and reluctant convert in all England. I did not then see what is now the most shining and obvious thing; the Divine humility which will accept a convert even on such terms. The Prodigal Son at least walked home on his own feet. But who can duly adore that Love which will open the high gates to a prodigal who is brought in kicking, struggling, resentful, and darting his eyes in every direction for a chance of escape? The words “compelle intrare,” compel them to come in, have been so abused be wicked men that we shudder at them; but, properly understood, they plumb the depth of the Divine mercy. The hardness of God is kinder than the softness of men, and His compulsion is our liberation.”

― C.S. Lewis, Surprised by Joy

“Surprised by Joy” is the title of his autobiographical work. Indeed, the one who takes the cure that God has offered us from the disease that is within us, within all of us, finds not only the cure for the particular ills that personally trouble us, but the cure for ills that we did not even notice because previously tolerated or even embraced them. All sin leads to death. It stands in the way of being the majestic beings we were made to be. It plagues us until we die, even those who have taken the cure. The cure is not instant; it is a process; and it requires continual submission to the One who loves us, who bought us with His life. When we have first received the cure, however, there is a taste of heaven to come; and it grows as we grow in faith, knowledge and submission of our lives to God’s providence.

Like the quinine pill for malaria, there is no other way to be cured from this disease of sin and ultimately death but by the salvation offered by God in Christ. Anything else is nothing but a momentary relief from the symptoms of the disease.

We Believe What We Want to Believe

I have often thought, and I maintain, that people believe what they want to believe. Naturally, when I found the same said on Seth’s blog, I believed it!

Seriously, though, I do not think I am going out on a limb here. When it comes to belief in God, in particular, it seems people tend to believe what they want to believe. Belief in God revealed in the life and statements of Jesus comes with a price. His words are harsh in some respects; they are unrelenting and uncompromising. It does not take long to see that the Jesus reveals a God who expects something from us.

I think we all have the sense that there really is no middle ground. Either we yield, or there is no place in our crowded hearts for God. We are quintessentially rational creatures. We do not abide paradoxes. We sniff out hypocrisy, sometimes even in ourselves, though that is a tough one. I think we can easily fool ourselves. If there is no place for God in our hearts, we are inclined to believe that God does not exist, or cannot be known. It fits our “worldview” after all.

A worldview is nothing more than how we see the world. It is tough to maintain a view of the world in which God is uncompromising, but in which we want to maintain control at the same time. Those two concepts do not sync together very well.

In the alternative, we also fool ourselves – at least those of us who believe in God: we acquiesce in word, but we fail in deed to live as if God is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. We do not yield to God’s control. We rationalize. We fail to cede the throne to Him. We are dishonest with God, ourselves and, therefore, the people around us.

Many believers in God may believe because it is convenient to believe. We do not like the idea of life ending at death. We want the comfort of believing that there is a god and, therefore, there is a heaven. We do not, however, want to admit that a God who made us, the universe and everything in it might just want something from us. At least, we do not live as if that were true.

I believe that atheists and agnostics may be more “honest” than many believers in God. They do not concede there is a god or a god that we can know. They do not suffer the hypocrisy in themselves (or other people). No wonder they are quick to see the hypocrisy in others and have no tolerance for it.

Of course, it is all very easy for atheists and agnostics. If there is no god, or no god that can be known, there is no need to live life any other way than how we want to live it. There is no struggle to conform to any standard other than one’s own. There is no competition for the rule of our hearts. Any threat to that self-rule is met with resistance, and there is no reason to hide that reaction. Defense of one’s atheism or agnosticism is paramount, because any suggestion that there is a God, and a God that can be known, is a threat to the integrity of one’s life and an assault on one’s sense of self-control.

In the end, however, belief in the non-existence or the inability to know God may not be a matter of rational thinking. It may be more a matter of protecting one’s own turf: the territory of the heart. We believe what we want to believe to protect the control we want to have. We do not want to concede anything to a God who made us.

God Does Not Fail

In Matthew, we are told that an angel appeared to Joseph and told him of Mary’s pregnancy and of the significance of the child she carried. Joseph accepted what he was told and followed what the angel told him to do. (Matt. 1:18-24) An angel appeared separately to Mary, and told her of the child she carried and of his significance. She accepted what she was told and went to her relative, Elizabeth, where the child in Elizabeth’s womb, John the Baptist, leapt for joy, confirming what the angel had spoken of her and of Elizabeth. (Luke 1:26-45)

                  “And Mary said:

‘My soul glorifies the Lord
and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
for he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call me blessed,
for the Mighty One has done great things for me—
holy is his name.
His mercy extends to those who fear him,
from generation to generation….'”

Luke 1:46-50

Today, let your heart rejoice in the Lord. Worship Him in spirit and truth.

He did not come as people expected. He came in humble conditions. He came for the humble in spirit. He came not to rescue one generation; He came for all generations. He came not to free the Jews from Roman rule; He came to free all mankind and womankind from sin and death. He came not to sit on the throne of Israel; He came to sit on the throne of God in Heaven and to usher in the Kingdom of God on earth for all those who will accept Him and follow Him.

Today is the day we remember what He has done and what God says He will do. We treasure what God has done and look forward expectantly to the fulfillment of His promises. As Mary and Joseph once accepted what they were told and followed expectantly to see the fulfillment of God’s promise, embrace the angel’s statement to Mary: “no word from God will ever fail.” (Luke 1:37)

Merry Christmas!

Good News

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As Jesus passed on from there, he saw a man called Matthew sitting at the tax booth, and he said to him, “Follow me.” And he rose and followed him.

And as Jesus reclined at table in the house, behold, many tax collectors and sinners came and were reclining with Jesus and his disciples.  And when the Pharisees saw this, they said to his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?” But when he heard it, he said, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. Go and learn what this means, ‘I desire mercy, and not sacrifice.’ For I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.” Matt. (9:10-13)

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