Lighting Out for the Wild West



A number of significant personal “revelations” mark my way in life. Among them is one that occurred in college during a combined history/literature class. It was literally a turning point for me.

Among the books we read in that class were the Pioneers by James Fenimoore Cooper and Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain. All the books we read explored the line between wilderness and civilization, the tension between man’s indomitable quest to conquer and civilize nature and his longing to be free of modern complexities and problems and return to nature.

Cooper wrote the Pioneers in 1823. It was fiction based on the “western frontier” of his time, with the setting in upstate New York in the finger Lakes area. The main character (the Leatherstocking, Natty Bumpo) was a grizzled old man who was more comfortable with the Indians on the other side of the lake than “his” people. His people were recklessly intent on taming the wilderness. He had more of a kinship with the Indians who respected nature and did not desire to tame it.

Cooper was among the earliest environmentalists. He was concerned about preserving the wilderness. In one of the most memorable segments of the book, he described the wanton abandon with which the pioneers heartily shot the slow Passenger Pigeons for sport, leaving destroying entire flocks at a time. The Passenger Pigeon has since gone extinct due to that kind of behavior.

Bumpo was not comfortable with his own crowd. He yearns to leave “civilization” and live in the wilderness. The book ends with him heading west to find untamed land.

Huckleberry Finn, of course, is the story of a young man cut out of a similar cloth. The time period is 1845, and the setting is much further west – along the Mississippi River. Just twenty something years after the Leatherstocking left upstate New York to find untamed country, Huckleberry Finn is struggling to conform with the “civilized” society of Hannibal, Missouri.

Huck had no more affection for the polite society of Hannibal, Missouri than the Leatherstocking had for his kind in Upstate New York. To Huck’s chagrin, the sliver of wilderness that he knows, the Mississippi River, is increasingly congested with paddleboats, commerce, and the constraints of civilized society. At the end of the book, Huck is last seen “lighting out for the west” just like Natty Bumpo, seeking untamed territory where Huck can live in peace the way he wants to live.

These books stirred a similar longing in me, but I realized that Huck’s westward trail would become a well-beaten path. The pioneers blazed the trail, but wagon trains and the Pony Express followed, then the railroads, then the transcontinental roads, then the highways, and then airports and jetliners. The sadness of having nowhere to run to hit my viscerally, and that visceral reaction led me to a turning point.

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The Face of Evil

Man in the MirrorHe was 19 years old. He went to an ethnically diverse, upscale high school near Harvard. He was a popular kid, a good athlete, very bright, well-liked. He graduated high school early and was studying to be a doctor. He killed three people, critically wounded dozens and injured many dozens more … We want him to be a monster! But “he was a good kid“.

Listening to the reflections on Dzhokhar Tsarnaev from his classmates and others who knew him and looking at his graduation photo leaves me perplexed. The rage and anger that arises from my gut at the sight of the bombing victims somehow does not match the image that comes from the reflections of people who knew him. It does not fit neatly into my black and white compartments. I want to hate him, but I see a person who seemed like just “a good kid”.

Smart, popular, athletic, young … what happened!!!?

Josef Stalin, Adolph Hitler, Idi Amin, Jeffrey Dahmer, Jack the Ripper all conjure up images of pure evil. Despicable, villainous, ugly, blackened souls, with no redeeming value. The depth of their depravity seems cavernous. We loathe them. We spit on their graves. We cannot imagine what possessed them.
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Perspective

Take a few moments and read this … and remember it.

Every shriveled old man or woman was once young and vibrant like you.

You and I will end up like this … if we are fortunate to live that long.

Life is short. It will come to an end.

Make the most of your days while you are young. Live a life well lived.

Trust the rest to God.

We go from dust to dust. It is what we do in the middle that matters.

Crabby Old Man

 

Why the Bible?

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College was a foundational time in my life. I was confident going into college that truth is knowable, understandable and discoverable. I was excited to get down to the business of discovering the truth. I had no idea where I would find this Truth, but it seemed apparent to me that Truth was something I could grasp. Continue reading “Why the Bible?”

We Believe What We Want to Believe

I have often thought, and I maintain, that people believe what they want to believe. Naturally, when I found the same said on Seth’s blog, I believed it!

Seriously, though, I do not think I am going out on a limb here. When it comes to belief in God, in particular, it seems people tend to believe what they want to believe. Belief in God revealed in the life and statements of Jesus comes with a price. His words are harsh in some respects; they are unrelenting and uncompromising. It does not take long to see that the Jesus reveals a God who expects something from us.

I think we all have the sense that there really is no middle ground. Either we yield, or there is no place in our crowded hearts for God. We are quintessentially rational creatures. We do not abide paradoxes. We sniff out hypocrisy, sometimes even in ourselves, though that is a tough one. I think we can easily fool ourselves. If there is no place for God in our hearts, we are inclined to believe that God does not exist, or cannot be known. It fits our “worldview” after all.

A worldview is nothing more than how we see the world. It is tough to maintain a view of the world in which God is uncompromising, but in which we want to maintain control at the same time. Those two concepts do not sync together very well.

In the alternative, we also fool ourselves – at least those of us who believe in God: we acquiesce in word, but we fail in deed to live as if God is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. We do not yield to God’s control. We rationalize. We fail to cede the throne to Him. We are dishonest with God, ourselves and, therefore, the people around us.

Many believers in God may believe because it is convenient to believe. We do not like the idea of life ending at death. We want the comfort of believing that there is a god and, therefore, there is a heaven. We do not, however, want to admit that a God who made us, the universe and everything in it might just want something from us. At least, we do not live as if that were true.

I believe that atheists and agnostics may be more “honest” than many believers in God. They do not concede there is a god or a god that we can know. They do not suffer the hypocrisy in themselves (or other people). No wonder they are quick to see the hypocrisy in others and have no tolerance for it.

Of course, it is all very easy for atheists and agnostics. If there is no god, or no god that can be known, there is no need to live life any other way than how we want to live it. There is no struggle to conform to any standard other than one’s own. There is no competition for the rule of our hearts. Any threat to that self-rule is met with resistance, and there is no reason to hide that reaction. Defense of one’s atheism or agnosticism is paramount, because any suggestion that there is a God, and a God that can be known, is a threat to the integrity of one’s life and an assault on one’s sense of self-control.

In the end, however, belief in the non-existence or the inability to know God may not be a matter of rational thinking. It may be more a matter of protecting one’s own turf: the territory of the heart. We believe what we want to believe to protect the control we want to have. We do not want to concede anything to a God who made us.